DolorNoir
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Post by DolorNoir on Mar 19, 2014 19:02:22 GMT -5
I am lying in the dark in my room in England. It's almost midnight and I'm really fucking high, and I'm looking out the window at the clouds and city lights, and I start thinking of you, and how beautiful you would think it might be if you were hanging out with me. So I put my headphones in, and I play all the Cure I have. Just for you.
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DolorNoir
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Post by DolorNoir on Mar 19, 2014 19:06:53 GMT -5
Haha! Also I am cozy tucked in and eating fairtrade chocolates in bed!
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DolorNoir
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Post by DolorNoir on Aug 15, 2014 13:28:37 GMT -5
back to work.
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Post by DolorNoir on Dec 17, 2014 20:18:54 GMT -5
i miss women. i haven't interacted with them much at all lately except through electronic equipment. i've been living totally dude surrounded. it's always interesting, the different phases our perception of events rolls through. your born, you live, you suck, you die.
Last night I kicked my room mate out of my room. We were enjoying some recreational fun I had found, and we were very intoxicated. But then I looked at him, and felt like he and I were falsely representing some of the same things. It was like in Fight Club, I suddenly hated him, his lie reflected my lie. So I kicked him out, and I had fun all by myself. And I slept for 15 hours.
I miss you darling. I'm coming back soon. Tomorrow.
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Post by DolorNoir on Mar 31, 2015 21:29:06 GMT -5
My favourite time of night: the moment when I am rationalizing to myself what I am about to do. In the morning I will make a deal with myself. It's the same deal I make almost every morning. We will work harder. We will not make this decision again for a week. We will lay off for a week. We will take a break from this and concentrate.
The problem with the woman beast who makes these deals with us in the morning? She is different by the end of the day. The animal changes, and clouded dreams become real reasons.
It's late. She's not going to study anymore tonight. Let's make her happy and be abed by midnight.
It's been a long day.
Why is she scared of the dark?
Because what if there's something out there worse than humans? She barely hangs on as it is sometimes...
Wild-eyed jailbirds have the softest tongues.
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Post by DolorNoir on Apr 16, 2015 23:11:52 GMT -5
MMMMmmmmmMMmmmmmm........ I am feeling good, stretching out, slowly twisting my back, and flexing my thighs sideways, crotch rolling flat down against the chair cushion my butt doesn't give naturally.
I had some super important school shit due at a moment's notice twice this week. I'm hoping for the best and knowing I'm more capable than the evidence given. Stupid fucking strike...
So now I relax. And it feels good. Especially since I've been listening to Concrete Blond and then Siouxie and The Banshees all night.
I have received another "sexy" (read: someone wants to bang me and is giving me *compliments*) text message from someone who I do not feel like being around.
Though I currently don't want to bloody see anyone, I've been around people too much today. ( There. I told him I'm not in the mood for this junk. Sorted. ) I spent the day studying outside around campus. I was all over the place and I moved around a bunch to shake it up, and chase the sun. I was burned on the neck and my right arm. Dang, whitey!
Tomorrow is my birthday. I wonder who will know. At least one beloved, I am sure. Though I would really love to kiss a new lady. I really would. Last weekend when Nate was here we made a song about my dream woman. It was fun. I miss her, the last time I saw her was two years ago when I was walking across campus eating chocolate and gave her some. I contacted her but she never messaged me back. She was dealing with some pile of junk previously though... so I supposed she still was...
It's not even that I like dudes more, it's that they just come by so easily.
Haha! cut off my hair.....
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Post by DolorNoir on Apr 20, 2015 23:59:34 GMT -5
Problem with my blacks: the incense I light are halfway done before I'm halfway through one stick.
Hmmmm, no, that's a problem with my incense.
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Post by DolorNoir on Feb 18, 2016 4:18:41 GMT -5
Dear Diary, I get turned on just thinking about jam on toast. Mmmmmmm.... Sincerely, Me
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